the whole world's a rainbow!!!

okay, im at work and interesting things happened. As usual, lol I'm wondering if these things happen more at work because I'm around more ppl at work and I'm usually not in everyday life...but then again, when a lot of this stuff happens at work, I'm alone.

Ok, so i keep getting followed by the color yellow. And not even a pretty yellow, but a weird mustard/pee looking yellow. First i saw it on my back. It was a stripe going down the back of my uniform. It was a stripe going down the back of my uniform. At first I thought it was green but saw yellow on something else. Then I realized it was yellow and just looked green because my shirt is blue.

When I moved around the yellow stripe didn't move, it stayed in the same area (like looking at the sun through a sliding glass window and you're slowly sliding the glass and you're still seeing the sun but not on the same spot on the glass.) I thought it was kind of odd. I put a white paper up to where the stripe was and saw that the paper then got a yellow stripe too. I was baffled by this but couldn't think of an explanation so moved on.

When I was talking to my boss I noticed a yellow color in her hair. She was talking to us for awhile so I was able to stare at her without being (hopefully) too weird. I saw yellow in between the strands of her hair and on top of her head. Then all of a sudden I saw a bold bright thick layer of blue behind the outline of her head and her back. THEN I saw purple on her arms. this lady was like a rainbow. I just stared at her in amazement. The thing is...auras are suppose to come in and out, with her that didn't happen. The colors were solid and constant. It didn't pulsate at all. I also looked at another coworker and saw the same big bold
 thick blue outlining the top of her head. after awhile i looked at her again and i didnt see the thick blue, i saw yellow surrounding her head.

looked at another male coworker of mine and his was harder to see. i just kno it was some pale color.

also i saw something that surprised me. i was sitting w. my head down kind of and my hand was resting on this white sheet of paper. i noticed that there was this incredibly thin, gold layer outlining my finger, i looked at another one and saw it there too. i had to go do something but when i tried again i couldnt see it. tried it again after awhile and i did.

i also kept seeing yellow on my way home. random items. a light pole was outlined w. this deep yellow. i looked in the rear view mirror and i saw the bottom of the car behind me and the side of it in this yellow, tho this seemed to have red on the edges.

i dont get what ANY of this means.

i asked my guides but they were no help. all they said was "life" i have NO idea what that means. i have no idea what ANY of this means. if someone can help me out here i'd be SO grateful.

ETA: oh wow. i'm even seeing it on the tv sometimes. i'm watching made and i saw it under the ballerina bar and the other time i saw it around the female thats getting made. i would just like to kno wtf is going on

Konoha guide =)

I've done a horrible job at keeping this updated I know.. Anyway, I went on a trip to the spirit world. Lately I've been watching a ton of Naruto and I am on a really dark part of the show (Itachi/Sasuke showdown) anyway those images kept entering into my mind. I began the first journey I went on. I knew I was under when I heard this deep and somewhat sinister voice. He told me he can help me. e wanted to help me with healing and developing my abilities.I asked if he came from a dark place and he told me no. I wasn't sure if I believed him but we continue to speak. I asked what he wanted in return. He said "nothing I just want to heal." he said he wanted me to allow him to do it with me. When I asked if he wanted to possess my body when he did so, he assured me he did not. He told me that he can make me the most powerful healer the world has ever seen. I just wasn't sure if I could trust him. He told me to not think so much and kept asking me what did I feel? I didn't quite feel like he was evil. Actually, I dont think he was either good nor evil. But something made me doubt his sincerity. While I continued to assess my thoughts I was suddenly brought out of the spirit realm. When I auto-wrote and asked Omoto why, I was told it was bc I didn't fully trust him. I asked him if I could ad he told me "maybe." I asked should I take him up on his offer and was told "no." When I asked why I was told bc he (Omoto) wasn't certain of this spirit's intentions. which to me is odd bc shouldn't he know? I thought guides should know everything.

When I asked what to do then I was told to go back and this time focus on the garden. I did so. At first the person talking to me came to me as Jiriya (ero-Senin) one of my favorite characters from Naruto. But I think I was so excited to see Jiriya that I began to lose focus. so the character was changed to someone I'm sure I saw in passing in earlier episodes but I had no real connection to. we were sitting down and speaking. I was asking questions fast and he was answering fast. It was as if we knew time would soon run out. That was actually mentioned at one point. He said something like, "let's get on with this before you wake up." here are some things we talked about, half of it was about Dre and the other half was on auras and healing.

Also, at one point he turned the background into this beautiful cornfield. Well he stood up and I followed him and he started teaching me about auras and healing. He told me all the stuff I was reading in the book i bought wasn't necessary. That I didnt need to know all of that to heal. He said I would know what to do. I would feel it and that he'd show me. He told me when I feel the magnetic pull under my hands, that's where the major source of illness is. The tingles means something will emerge in that area soon. He also said that this (energy healing) was only the beginning and I had way bigger things in my future. He started saying more but then on the bottom of the blanket between my feet I felt the blanket be hit up from the insie. You know when you hit a blanket and it pops? Like that. I asked him "What was that?" he told me to "ignore it." I tried but my mind lost its focus and wandered, I was brought back. I asked Omoto and he told me that low level spiritis didn't want me learning how to heal and help people. And to rest and go back tomorrow.

Another thing... the first time I got out of my travels with the voice it was after I felt a cold gust of wind on my physical face. I know the A/C was on but I dont see how a cold gust can suddenly hit the left side of my face (that's away from the vents) and not my right when there was no vent on top of me, only to my right side and far away. But then again, I remember before I wanted my guides to show me a sign that they were there by blowing a cold gust of air..that may be it...

i discovered a new skill!!!

sooo interesting day, interesting day.

i've noticed that a lot of these interesting things happen to me when i'm at work. i work at a hospital. does anyone have any idea as to why that may be?

so here's a few things that happened today. i had a patient who was going to receive a shock (cardioversion) to try to get her heart pumping correctly. i was there to assist. the lady talked a lot, but she wasn't talking to me, so i was able to stare at her without her being able to tell. i saw that she had a green aura, it wasnt a vibrant green but an ugly, murky green. when i had the chance i looked up what it could mean and a few that i saw was fear and a need to feel secure, which would make sense given the fact that she was about to be shocked and she was scared. it also means jealousy, envy, mistrust, etc. which i can see also, seeing how she's not well and hasnt been for awhile and my coworker, who looks older than the patient (she's like in her 60's) is very active and healthy.
the mistrust could come from the fact that she had this done before, and it didn't work, so she doubts it would work this time.

another thing that happened was i was taking a nap at one of my secret work hideouts on my break. i had one leg cross over the other and while i was sleeping i felt someone tug three times on my pant leg. i woke up and looked at the time, it was time for me to go back to work.

the biggest and most exciting thing that happened tho is this, i was in a patient's room and she was completely out of it. like she's a "DO NOT RESUSCITATE" knockin on death's door patient. no one was in the room and i thought "this would be an excellent time for me to practice auras" i tried to see hers but for some reason it was harder than i thought. i saw what looked like a very pale blue, which confused me bc i thought it would be like a sickly yellow or black or something, seeing how she's almost gone. i gave up, figuring i am just not seeing her aura properly. now that i'm home though it would make sense bc here's what my book says about a blue aura: blue is the color of the spirit, contemplation, prayer, and heaven, symbolizing religious, mythical, and spiritual feelings. Pale blue shows less maturity but sincere desire to make efforts in the right direction.

if someone is dying and they know they are dying, it would make sense that they would be considering these things.

after checking for her aura i decided to try something. i put my hand over her and concentrated. i waited to see if anything happened. i moved my hand from her head to her chest (the rest of her was bundled up in a ton of blankets and pillows so i didn't bother) my hand began to be pulled to the right side of her chest like a magnet. they began to make circles. i moved it to the left side of the chest and felt nothing, they just began to migrate back to the right. i wanted to continue but two nurses came into the room so i left.
afterward i looked up her history. i looked at chest x-rays and in one of the descriptions if said she had an airspace disease in her right lung, that had worsened since the last time she was there. i let out a little cheer lol. however there was something wrong with her head/brain, encephalopathy (sp?) that i didn't feel. but anyway, i felt like it was good for my first time. especially since i didn't know what i was doing and i'm just starting out. this is pretty exciting!

celtic wisdom deck

Confused about the auras, I thought red would be first bc I thought the chakra colors correalated with the aura colors. and since the root aura was the first one and it is red, i thought the first aura color you'd see would be red too. It appears though that it isn't as simple as all that.

I wish I could hear my guides telepathically. Sometimes I can but only when I'm only autowriting. And even then, sometimes I can't. I feel like I may be able to see or feel them at one point. Except I'm scared to.

The other day I was at work, half aslep (lol) and my guide wanted to tell me something about the auras I was seeing. I was sitting off in a cubicle somewhere and I thought I saw my pen, that was on the right side of my hand roll toward me. Since I was so tired I ignored it and thought I was seeing things. Until I saw it move again! THEN i felt a pressure on my hand and it lifted up slightly. Clearly my guide was trying to tell me something. I thought that was pretty cool.

Also I went to another meta store  the other day to get a stone my guide told me to get. A moldavite. They didn't have it in the usual meta store i always go to so I went to another one (i felt like such a traitor, lol) my guide kept insisting that there was something else he wanted me to get. I went from room to room asking if that was the room it was in, until finally I was told yes. I then asked if I could be shown a sign as to what I was supposed to be getting. I wanted my guide to move the moldavite in my hand as a sign i was in the right area but I was told he couldnt do it. But that he will find another way to show me a sign. So i walked around a bit just waiting and looking, i came upon a rack of pendulums and I have seen others in the store, but for some reason this one made me stop. I noticed 3 of the pendulums were vibrating while the other ones were completely still or maybe just swaying gently. One in particular caught my attn. So i picked it up and asked it to show me yes. then I called to my guide and asked if that was what he wanted me to get. i was told yes. then i asked if i was supposed to buy it. i was told no. so then i realized he wanted me to use it to find what it was that i wanted. so i did that until finally i came upon a deck of cards. they are the celtic wisdom cards. but i have no idea how to use it and there isnt much info online.

anyway, i just thought it was pretty cool that something like this was now part of my everyday life.

auras and sexy new spirit

hey! really cool experience the other day. i was at work and looking in the mirror fixing my hair, when i noticed a blue spot on my sweater. i looked at it and it disappeared. i went back to fixing my hair but kept seeing it. i moved around a bit and noticed it moving on different spots on my sweater. i realized i was seeing the aura of the sweater! that day i went around looking at the auras of EVERYTHING. i could easily see the aura of any object i wanted! it was so awesome. but it seems to come and go. like sometimes i can see them easily w.o hardly trying and other times it takes awhile to come. anyway, the next day, which was yesterday, i met a new spirit. i decided to go to the spirit realm to speak to my guide. he was supposed to teach me more about auras.

anyway when i got to where i wanted to go i was met by someone else. at first i thought it was my guide coming to me in another form. then i thought maybe it was another one of my guides. but after awhile i just knew it wasn't. he's someone else. idk who he is exactly but my guide told me i had nothing to fear with him. at one point i almost got lost and he called me back. i also met with some unsavory spirits and he coached me on how to get away from them. only drawback is.. he's smokin hot. lol. and i think he has a thing for me, which isn't good. i would only want to keep my spirit relationships teacher-student. anyway, i got brought back to my body prematurely, not 100% sure why. i was annoyed tho bc i went into the spirit realm for a specific purpose and completely got sidetracked by this. i wish things were more focused when im in there. sometimes they are but mostly they're not. it can be a bit disorienting and easy to lose focus.

the spirit also told me about someone in my life who i shouldn't trust too much. i believe him on that one. the things he said about him seemed pretty accurate. also, he told me that he's the one that sometimes visits me at night. interesting huh? i asked why and he said he was curious and fascinated by me. why? i'm not too sure...

Lilith, Eve and auras

i had decided to give myself a break. things are going kind of fast and i decided to take some time off of meditating, etc. i decided yesterday i was ready to do it again. i went back to the garden and i think i met another one of my guides. i also saw lilith again. she keeps trying to sleep with me which is odd. each time im telling her it's not gonna happen but i guess that doesn't stop her from trying. i was told i lacked focus (which i do) trying to figure out how to become more focused. so afterward i tried to see my aura again and i couldn't. which freaked me out. then i was told that i needed to relax and that it comes natural. so i did. and i was able to see the blue again. and i realized i could see the white outline on my arms, etc.

so i decided to look and try to see my aura in the mirror which i've never been that good at doing. and i was able to see the blue running along my body and the purple ON my skin which is really annoying, the white layer was gone and i saw yellow too. but i wasn't sure if that was from the light reflecting on my skin or what... so basically i'm happy i can see another aura color but i'm still confused. and idt i'm indigo bc it's not like the colors are mixed together. it's one after the other sometimes, like layers. so i think im just seeing another layer, but i'm just wondering why i'm seeing it ON my skin instead of outside of my skin. it's irritating.

also i'm trying to raise my frequency so if you kno a way to do that that would be great.
i am also trying to see if i can see auras on other ppl but i have no one to practice on. i tried practicing on my dog but she never sits still, esp if she sees i'm looking at her =/

I sent that message to Kali, and this is what she had to say in response:

I wouldn't be too worried with the auras. It sounds like you are visualizing all of your chakras actually. Not a bad thing, just confusing. You are seeing layer upon layer of color. Also wouldn't worry about the color actually being on your skin. Have you ever noticed how all the Hindu Gods and Goddesses are blue? With the exception of Kali who is so dark blue, or indigo that people believe to have midnight black skin. Anyway, the point IS that these "gods/goddesses/beings were actually humans at some point and they were perceived as having "blue" skin, but it was their advanced chakra that was visible to us common folk, lol. Maybe they had better air quality and healthier food in ancient times, don't know. Maybe that had that mystical food of the gods mentioned in nearly every culture and religion.

She also said this:

People know the truth, the truth just takes research and most don't have the patience for it, they want results and they get results...just not the "results" they wanted...So be careful.

Good advice, and then this

Oh and Lilith is a err....pervert? Sorta. Maybe that's not the word...A sexually free being? And a sexually expressive person to be sure. Plus it probably doesn't help much that you my dear, look a lot like a certain someone from your holy books...Someone else from a garden. The mother of humanity? ...You look and act a lot like Eve. So maybe Lilith was confused since if you read up enough, supposedly the two of them paired up during the whole temptation/apple scene.

Now THAT blew me away. I look like Eve? How does one even know what Eve really looks like? From the illustrations I've seen, I look absolutely nothing like her. 

Kali also went on to say
Try not to take offense to it. She learns through her carnal/merging senses. All things wild/earthen/untamed...but also primal knowledge or rather primordial knowledge. Carnal senses. Things that can't be taught in books or at seminars.

another aura color

so my spirit guide kept bugging me to meditate and train some more. and yes i said BUGGING bc he was being pretty relentless and acting like he was SO disappointed in me for not taking this seriously and yadda yadda. so i finally began my meditation that day and he took me to this place that he kept talking about. he told me 1- i needed to learn how to focus during my travels, which i agree on but dont kno how to do and 2-that i needed to increase my vibrational frequency to see auras the way i wanted to. so he did something to me. and i felt these intense vibrations in my body. it started in my foot and traveled up body. i remember it was the most intense in my neck. it actually scared me a lot but i prayed and hung in there. anyway it was done and then he told me i reached a higher frequency, then he took me to this beautiful mythical looking place and i was happy and excited but i wasnt able to stay there for long at all. he told me that this was the place that he kept mentioning in my writings. then i was out of my travel and i could move again. anyway i woke up and looked at around then at my hand and body and i was disappointed bc i didnt notice anything different. i didnt see my aura. then i heard a voice in my head go. did you even try to see it? so i focused on my hand and now i see another layer. which is pretty damn cool. but confusing. bc i thought my aura was purple this whole time. now im seeing blue. i mean i still see the purple. but im not sure which one is the one thats supposed to be the non-changing one that tells about my personality. both purple and blue seem to describe me well. anyway. wanted to pass that on. it was a cool experience but now idk what my aura color is...