first spirit encounter

(email sent to kali about my first encounter) 

i have some exciting news! this morning while meditating i came across my first spirit! im not sure what those other ppl were. they seemed to be just living their life. but i mean someone who talked to me and i knew for a fact she was not of this world. before i began i said a prayer and asked God and my spirit guides to guide me and to protect my spiritual and physical body. while meditating i once again went into a paralyzed state. except the first time it was a heavy paralysis, like a pressure was on me. and it was hard to move my eyes upward toward my third eye. i was seeing the same random scenarios. it was interesting but i got annoyed bc i felt like it was such a waste you know? i wanted to see something more, learn something that can help me this time. i wanted to find out more info on opening my third eye and seeing auras. i got out of the heavy paralysis mode after awhile and continued to meditate. then i began to feel very light and this time my eyes rolled to the area of my third eye on its own. i felt tingles all over and felt my spirit wanting to leave my body. like felt it wanting to life straight up. and i felt something odd in my solar plexus area. like something wanted to come out of it. i told my spirit to just go already. im sure it/i was just hesitating bc the fear that had grown from reading about all the things that have gone wrong while the spirit is away from the body. but eventually i was in a complete state of paralysis. i didnt have to try to do anything i just knew thats what it was. anyway i was walking somewhere. i cant tell where i was walking to, but i knew it wasnt on earth. and i ran into this woman. she was very pretty w. medium length brown hair. me and her talked for a long time. she answered my questions i had about auras and my 3rd eye etc. but it was weird bc she only answered the first two herself and then she kind of left visually, but i could tell she was still there. the rest of the questions i asked was answered my movements of my head. i wasnt controlling my head at all! i was completely paralyzed but my head would move in answer to the questions. sometimes it was an up and down for yes, side to side for no, no answer at all, or a circle for a maybe. in the same direction as my pendulum! that was so crazy to. i would feel a tingle in my forehead. in my third eye area i guess, now that i think of it. and then my head would slowly move in one direction or the other. isnt that a trip?!

anyway, i had also asked her if she was my spirit guide? that was one of the first questions i asked her and she said no. i asked were the answers coming from myself and she said no. i asked this bc w. the pendulum its said the answers are coming from your higher self. i was confused then bc if it wasnt coming from any of these sources where can it be coming from. so i asked if these answers were coming from a place that was of God and if the questions were coming from a place of lightness or darkness. she said yes to the lightness. i asked again if she was my spirit guide and she said no. i made it clear i will not accept anything from the darkness. i have already had a situation where the darkness tried to get me in exchange for something. but i'll save that for another time. this is already getting incredibly long. anyway i continued to ask questions that i really wanted to know the answers to. questions about my ex, my career, my developing abilities, etc. after awhile of shooting off one question after the other i quieted down and couldnt think of anything else. i had many more but couldnt think of anything else. anyway she reappeared out of nowhere. but this time in different clothes and she was in a garden. it was a very bright place. the sunlight was dancing off of her. she looked like an angel. she asked me if i was done asking questions. i asked her if she was my friend, she took a long time to answer the question and then she looked at me again and her eyes glowed red and her teeth were sharp for a second before it went back to looking angelic. she asked me "what do you think?" i said "idk, sometimes it seems like you are and sometimes i can't tell." she took her time again and said looked me straight in the face and said "sometimes things aren't either good or bad, they just are." she then put my face between her hands and kissed my forehead. she turned to leave and i yelled no but she kept going and i asked her to wait but she didnt stop and went into a bright place. suddenly i was released from the paralysis  and it was over. i was blown away for a second, not believing what just happened. then i got up and quickly wrote about my experience in my journal.

*exhales* that was my first contact w. a spirit!! omg!!! im so excited!!! it was so unexpected!! when i asked for answers and help i wasnt sure what i was expecting, but i wasnt expecting  that! it was so unreal! and to think i used to hate meditating! now i cant get enough of it!